Miss You (L). / Shannon Bailey (Neice) hello auntie sam (L),,
well i havent been on here for agesss, and everythings gone on. i see my dad now :) i see him saturdays and sometimes in the week,and im glad i see him now. its thanks to carlie anne for talking to me about it :),i was so scared when i first went to see him lol,we went to the harvester :) and it was lovely, well thats one thing thats gone on, and a load of others, i cant believe how much can happen in a couple of months.
im getting on at school fine :), i hate getting up at half 6 though! lol. i leave soon,in about 4 weeks i think, this years just gone really quick! lol.
im still breaking and making up with all my friends haha,but i suppose thats life. me and amber have become much more closer now and i know the reason why :), im glad she told me so now i can understand why shes moaning and upset sometimes, and i can try and help her through it :),i'll always be here for her :)
we walked down to asda today with toby :) got her next door neighbours birthday present :), we walked down there yesterday too :). its turning summerrrrr :) i can go to the beach and catch a tan now :), i cant waittttttt :) i've been waiting agesss lol, now its turning summer i want to go places, even if its just a walk lol, its nice to be out in the sunnnn :) i wish you was here then we could all catch a tan together lol.
well you would be 38 on tuesday, not long till the big 40! lol, its only about 6 months i think,till my 13th birthday,a teenagerrrr :) but its your 3rd anniversery in heaven :(, i cant believe how quick its gone, but i suppose you wouldnt want us all to be miserable, i know you didnt mean to die on my birthday but the stupid doctors or nurses whatever they are pronounced you dead on the 1st of january :(
right i got to go now,need to get ready for bed got school in the morning! :(.
i'll see you one day, iloveyou somuch (L)(L)(L)(L).
Its all getting bit easier and calming down now. i also think people have realised this is it. Its not like before. We're both happier this way.
Found everything really hard and it all got on top of me couple of weeks ago but i'm all good now. Got the kids this weekend. Gonna go to mine in a min so they can play on the trampolines :)
Roo starts nursery monday. His speak is so much better now. he can completely communicate its great. Brookes doing great too. cant believe shes 9. Where did it go?? Spoke to Georgia the other day. She got hit by a car when she was on her bike but I'm sure u know coz I'm sure u were there beside her. Shes all good now though. My works going great. so busy at the mo. Have so much work on reviewing all the direct debits for 40 thousand accounts LOL. I know snowed under but I get to sit listening to me music instead of being on the phones so can moan U just hear me shouting TUNEAGE!!! all day ha ha. and I cant help but dance he he. I just love knowing I'm independant. Everything I own I bought it, I earnt it. All the clothes I have the dvds, phone, weekends away, I earnt the lot I worked for it and no one bought it for me. No man is supporting me and I'm EARNING my money. LOVE IT!!!!! Its an amazing feeling
(L) x / Shannon Bailey (Neice)
Well i guess today hasnt been the day. I just really want to go on Saturday and by the looks of it, i might :). But it all depends really, i got myself all worked up, just for something silly,well its not that silly,we've just had it planned to go out on the 20th for months. Well i probably will go anyway :)
Im going now,gonna watch Eastenderss :)
iloveyou loads :) missyou (L) x x x x x x x x x x x x x x x Close
Missing you / Carlie Bailey (Neice)
Hello auntie sam, sorry havent wrote on here in a while, but theres not a day that goes by when im not thinking about you. dad got back in contact but things just went tits up again, but he aint never been there for me anyway so im not that botherd, things have been hard these last few days i hope your with me, i miss you so much just wish you was here with us, 38 on tuesday nearly 40 lol i cud imagine wat you'd be saying if you was still here, i finally finshed my college course and passed it, got onto the next level so thats good :) just need to get a job now but its too hard cant find one anywhere..anyway im off ill be back on here on tuesday, love you so much thinking about you all the time xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close
hey/ Scott (bruv)
hey sam, well you know i only ever come on here when its all gone tits up , well here we are again. i want to write this but then im not writing it because i hope kirsty or anyone else sees it, im past all that. but i got too, we've all been through shit, and im fed up of it, where does it ever end? does it end by doing what you did? why did you do it sis?? i try and tell myself i understand and i can see why, but honestly i cant. your my sister sam and i can never talk to you again, ever! how fair is that? why do i deserve never to see you again? why do i deserve never to be able to talk to you again? do i deserve to go through all my shit without you by my side??? FUCK!!!!!! forgrt it, your not going to help me, your not going to tell me what to do, your not going to tell me its going to be alright!!...why sam why......i love you, but why xx xx xx Close
Yorkshire was fab. Had the pool out and loads of cocktails Yummy!! Such lovely weather. Doing a swap next time. I'm going up there with the kids and Daz will come down spend the weekend with scott. Said the 2 gay boys will just sit in and play computer and drink beer LOL. Scotts answer to that was no me n daz, beer and women Ha ha. Whatever!!!!
Roo's coming along great atm. His speach is sooo much better. He's so much better he didnt get in to the special school so thats good. No more fits as of yet touch wood. Carlie went out with her dad the other day. Said she had a great time. hes making an effort which is what counts.
They took the courtesy car monday :( thought scott was gonna cry LOL. Hes looking at cars atm. we got a good pay out on the insurance so thats good. Just annoying coz Scott cant work until we sort out a car so I'm doing overtime. I'm knackered LOL. Oh well, cant have nice things if we dont earn money. Roo loves going to Nickis in the day. He gets the ump if he cant go LOL. He gets up in the morning and says "Aunt Nics?" LOL
Anyway on me lunch break and got a meeting in a min. No rest for the wicked. My boss is a slave driver HA HA HA
Birthday today. Missing your text this morning. Sitting at work on my break. Had all My texts come through but once again nothing from you. Think I'd have got used to it by now :)
Riley tried to give me my bday pressie yesterday after they bought it. Doesnt quite understand bless him and he has the ump its not his bday LOL. Scott put a candle in my toast this morning lol. He said he was going to just give me bread and that the candles would have toasted the bread. Cheeky bugger!!!
Going to see fee on friday. Sooooo looking forward to it.
Anyway,
Missing you loads and loads and loads as ever but especially today.
Brooke was in the parade the other day. She loved it with her glitter in her hair LOL. Roo doing good. Speech picking up. Had no more problems with the fits (touch wood).
The insurance company looked at the car the other day. Think they might fix it. Think your bro will be holding on to the car higher bloke when they take that car away Ha ha!! Going up to fee's in a few weeks for my bday. 28!!! Be 30 soon aahhhh. Training really hard for the race for life. Got loads of sponsers. Am taking the form to work next week so wil get loads off everyone. been running at 6am :o
Well summer is nearly here and be ur bday soon. Think thats why I'm feeling a lil blue, not coz i'm nearly 30 ;) just getting to that point again. remembering your not here I guess. Just creeps up on ya.
Anyway. I'm at work on my lunch break and have a meeting in a min so best crack on. Joys of earning a living :)
everyones fine. Ur bro had a car crash the other day. some arse went up his arse. kids fine. Brooke hurt her ankle and roos fine. Scotts bit sore. He got out the car n nearly smacked the kiddie. he said only coz the kids were in the car. Its now sitting in Nickis drive n i'm back to getting sodding buses to work. Bloody pain. Its alright. No one was hurt n thats the main thing. I get a pay rise next month which will take me to £8.50 p/h so wont take me long to get a new one n see what the insurance says. just a bit annoying that its half term n no car.
Shannon is proving to be the lil star we all thought she would be. Nicki went to parents thing the other day and they said her maths is at the level of a university student!!!!! Obviously gets that from me!!!! I have obviously passed on my wisdom :D
Roo's tests came back normal. doesnt mean he doesnt have epilepsy just means it slims the chances right down, which is cool. Still have to carry his meds everywhere just incase.
Just sorting graphics out for u while the kids build a massive wall in mega blocks LOL. Sitting in the front room with me new ipod in on full blast lol. Drowns the kids noise out ha ha ha
march 2009 / Kirsty
Hey babes. Sorry its been awhile. Not been able to get on here. Apparently there was a virus attached to Memory-of, so didnt wanna come one till I updated my norton. Am low and behold I just clicked on and took forever then Norton flashed up that it stopped a virus. PHEW. LOL. Hopefully will be sorted soon so I can update ur site.
Jobs going great. Love it. Very stressful as it the highest paid department so lots of work but never a dull moment. Bring on me bonus LOL. Fancy me, an accounts manager... oooo!! well we all know I am the brainiest :D. Buying a car this week. Then I'll start my driving lessons too. Well I am buying the car so would be nice if I could drive it!!!!
Scott had his cup final wed. We all went. There were loads of us!! and we're all such a roudy bunch. Lorna stod behind Nicki and Shannon moaning who asked her to come coz she was so gobby PMLS. I did remind her Nicki is a gooner so blaming it on that. Although, they were dirty fouling B*****ds LOL. Of course they won. 1-0 scott finally strolled in bout 2.30am he he. Me and shannon were just cuddled up with me cuppa. Took me hours to warm up. Told Shannon not have any boys and tell her husband to Jog on then she wont have to do it :D. Me and Nicki g0ot Riley to shout "Jog on Blues" as the other team went past, was so funny. He saw Scott running and said "Wow, dad run" Shows how often he sees scott run Ha ha.
Roo had his EEG on tuesday and he has his MRI on wed. All scarey stuff. So many test. Cant wait till its all over. He's being put to sleep on wed so pretty nervous but i'm sure ur all watching over him. It was an epileptic fit. Its partial siezures of the frontal lobes as we know so far. Will know more after the MRI. Been looking for my reciept. I got a broken one, need to take him back HA ha ha ha.
Anyway. Keep an eye on him weds. I'm sure u will. Gotta go fix me nail. Scott broke it when he was trying to get out B's room after I locked him in HA HA HA
Well, gave us quite a scare, but theres def an angel on his shoulder, wether its u or someone else. Some one must be watching over him. He's a very lucky bastard. Just have to wait for all the tests now. He's got meds if he has another turn before the EEG and MRI.
We were both so scared friday night. It really didnt look good at 2am. I really dont know what we would have done if we had lost him. Doesnt bare thinking bout. Just glad he's home and on the mend. Everyone was brill. All the staff in A & E were fantastic some even came up to ICU to see how he was at the end of their shift. Think coz he's a bubba it scared them too. He looked like such a baby laying there, Sam. So tiny n helpless. Lifeless. It was horrible. It took all my strength to hold it together and not sit in the corner in a heap. But he's on the mend now and thats what counts. Just hoping it was a one off freak incident coz all the other reasons means a life time on meds and never living a completly normal life. So just fingers crossed but atleast he pulled thru. He's a fighter and def has an angel on his shoulder. Nicki and Shannon came up to see him. Nicki bought us a subway (YUM YUM) coz we had barely eaten in days (or slept). When Brooke came to see him he was in a toy area sitting down and he tried to get up n run to her shouting Brookie!!! but he couldnt support his own weight n collapsed on the floor. He was just so happy to see her he forgot his legs werent working bless him. He had loads of visiters so he wasnt bored. Well, a lil bit bored on the sunday. He sat in the bath last night trying to get his sticky things of this chest n belly! then he was just left with lil circles LOL.
Anyway, start my job next week ((AAARRRGGGHHH) :D hopefully things can go up instead of down from here.
xxxxxxx/ Shannon Bailey (Neice)
Well,, I Guess You Know About Nan Simpson... Mum Phoned Me While I Was At School,,At First I Couldn't Hear Her Properly But When I Heard I Felt Like Crying. I Thought She Was Going To Pull Through... I Dont Really Know What Else To Say. But Just Look After Her Auntie Sam,,Make Her Feel Safe.
I Hope Your Doing Okay Up There Cause Down Here Is Just Getting Worse. I Wonder Whats Going To Happen Next?
Well I'm Going Now,,I Don't Know What Else To Say.
Miss You xxxxxxxxxxxx / Shannon Bailey (Neice)Read >>
Miss You xxxxxxxxxxxx / Shannon Bailey (Neice)
Hello Auntie Sam,
I've Only Came On To Write A Quick Message,, Sorry I Didn't Write On Here Yesterday,I Didn't Know What To Write,, I Still Don't But...
Well,Yesterday Was Your 2nd Anniversary & My 12th Birthday & Everyone Made It Special For Me Even Though I Didn't Cry,I Still Thought Of You Every Minute Of The Day,,But I Knew You Would Of Wanted Me To Be Happy On My Birthday,,& I Don't Think You Were Meant To Die On My Birthday,,Thats Why You Did It Then,,& I Always Think You Died On The 29th Of December.
Well It's Uncle Scott's & Libby's Birthday Tomorrow,,I Hope They Have A Good Day Even Though You Have Gone We Can Still Have Fun On Our Birthdays Because I Know Thats What You Would Of Wanted.Libby's Being Naughty At The Moment So Mum Said If Shes Not Good Tonight She Wont Be Getting Any Presents. She keeps Waking Up In The Middle Of The Night & Wont Go Back In Her Bed So She Mum Lets Her Go In Her Bed.
Oh I Got A New Phone For My Birthday Off Mum,,& A Top Off Carlie-Anne,,& A Bath Set Of Uncle Scott & Auntie Kirsty,,& Some Spongebob Pjama's & A Purse & A Necklace Off Reigan I Used The Bath Set When I Was In The Bath Earlier & I Cream Over Me After My Bath & It's Made My Skin All Soft
Right I'm Going To Go Now,,Dont Know What Else To Write. I Love&Miss You So Much
2 years without u ........ / Nicki Bailey (Lil Sis Always )Read >>
2 years without u ........ / Nicki Bailey (Lil Sis Always )
Well Sis here we go again,hate this part of the year soooooo much but we have 2 carry on an get thro it no matter how much it hurts......People keep sayin 2 me it's will get easier......WEN? WEN IS IT GONNA GET EASIER????.....Jus seems 2 be gettin harder an harder every day 2 me....
Me + the girls had a nice Christmas,was jus me, the girls + Demi this year an it was nice,we had a good day .....i made it as good as i cud 4 them + i think they enjoyed themselves. We don't celebrate New Years Eve anymore,haven't dun 4 the past 2 years now altho we do stay up till midnight still an do Shannon's cake 4 her,she'd prob go mad if i didn't still do it!! She likes stayin up till midnight cos that mean she gets her presents b4 she goes 2 bed,so 2nite we'll jus stay up till midnight,do the birthday cake,have a cry 4 u then go 2 bed,Shannon birthday 2mz so we will be up early an busy 4 the day!!
Oh i had a 'lil' win at bingo again last week I'm sure u were watchin down laughin at me like u always id wen i won wen u used 2 cum wit me! Me + the kids had a FAB day in town the day after,was up there for 5 hours in all the clothes + shoe shops,funni thing is,i had 2 buy size 10 clothes!!!! I thought my clothes were gettin a bit baggy ha ha so ur Lil Sis is now a nice size 10 an lovin it ha ha!!!!
Anyway Sis i better get off here b4 i get myself all upset again an i don't want make-up runnin down my face,i'm sure u wud be laughin sittin up there on ur lil cloud wit Bri!!!! I'll cum on again soon Sis but jus coz i don't cum on very often it doesn't mean that i don't think of u EVERY second of EVERY day cos i do!! Sleep tite babe.....
2 years / Scott (bruv)
hello sam, well happy new year!!!!....yeah well something like that! well here we are again....2 years gone nothing has changed, life is shit and your gone......love you forever xx Close
Well christmas has come n gone n here we are again. Feels like only yesterday I was making this site for u n now its 2 years. Me n scott are just staying in tonight with a few beers n a chinese. We'll be thinking of u all night. We'll be thinking of Shannon too. I know u would never have wanted to go when u did. To ur knowledge u went on the 29th. I wish everyday they hadnt revived u if u werent ging to survive, well if i really had one wish it would be for u to have never gone at all but , even God cant change what u felt like u had to do. But the memories we're left with are heightened by what we had to endure for 2 n a half days that u were unaware of. If there really is an after left I bet u were curseing them for trying to revive u. U would have stopped it if u didnt want to go. Although we did get to say our goodbyes while u were technically still alive.
As u know this doesnt get any easier. The longing to change the fact ur gone will never go. Some days it hits u like a bolt out of the blue, u realise we will never see ur face again. Me n Nicki n car n Shan were laughing bout the silly things u've done the other day. Nicki did a cracking impression of ur stupid snorting chuckle. We were pissing ourselves . We were talking bout the time u drove n drove n didnt know where u were. N the time u done the windows in the pub and the time u rung scott saying u'd been done for drunk driving, saying to him its alright its funny!! U really were a bloody nightmare woman!!!! but right now i'd happily listen to u telling us u've done stupid things.
Well anyway, my chicky chinese will be here in a min n me beers getting cold
I love u n miss u n think of u everyday and wish u were still here but ur not n we just have to get used to that, no matter how much it hurts and how weird that fact is.
Sleep tight beautiful, see u on the other side (but no food fights when we get there ok
christmas/ Scott (bruv)
hey sis, well its over again..well in truth its only just started again, but christmas day is over. it was good for the kids again, thats the most important thing but its not the same and it never will be. just wanted to come on here and speak to you because the next week is going to be shit again and i dont want to come on here and start getting all upset and wishing for things that cant happen, so sleep tight and dont forget that i will always love and never forget you xx Close
Miss You xxxxx / Shannon Bailey (Neice)
Well It's Christmas, I Thought It Was Going to Be Worse Than This But It Was Okay, It Still Feels Weird You Not Being Here. I Liked All My Presents,Well I Do Every Year But,You Know.
Well Next Week,It's Going To Be My Birthday,Your 2nd Annerversery. I Know Everyone Is Going To Try & Make It Special,& even If I Am Having Fun,I'm always Thinking Of You.
Well I Guess You Saw What Happened To Me Last Sunday,I Don't Have A Clue What Happened,But All I Know Is That You Were Looking down On Me & Helped Me Get Through It. I'm Fine Now Though
Right I Got To Go I've Been Up Since 7:50,Well Maybe Even Earlier,So I'm Going To Lay Down & Listen To My Ipod
I Miss You So Much,Wish You Were Here With Us Today. Love You LOADS & LOADS!! Love Shannon xxxxxxxxxxx Close
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