1st Christmas without u :( / Shannon Bailey (Neice)
hey auntie Sam,
i miss u sooo sooo much! auntie Kirsty,uncle Scott,Brooke an Roo came ova 4 xmas an Jay was here aswell. We had a really good time but somethin jus seemed missin in my heart an it was u. hope u an uncle Brian are ok up there lookin after eachother. miss u 2 sooo much wish u were here. gunna be even harder next week jus y dus it have 2 happen 2 the best ppl?
miss u so much love u
Shannon x x x x x x x x x x
1st Christmas without u :( / Nicki Bailey (LIL SIS ALWAYS!!!! )Read >>
1st Christmas without u :( / Nicki Bailey (LIL SIS ALWAYS!!!! )
Well Sis our 1st Christmas without u an it really don't feel like Christmas at all :( Scott,Kirsty an kids came over 4 dinner an Jay was here as well,he struggled 2day,he cried,he was quiet,he hardly ate but WE were here 4 him an as no-one else has asked about him or how he's feelin we stuck 2gether as a FAMILY an helped him thro it,he got spoilt from us,Demi an Demi's family bless him!!!!! Next week is gonna be the hardest time 4 us but dont u worry Sam,I WILL ALWAYS be there 4 Jay,i'll help him thro it like i have done 4 the past year,as u kno we dont see the other 2 anymore but we still think of them everyday an will always be here 4 them as well,i promise u that i will be here an help Jay.
Anyway Sis better go an tidy up now,looks like a tornado been thro my house lol!!
xmas/ Kirsty (lil sis-in-law )
Well its christmas eve. It feels strange. Christmas seems to be the biggest time of the year. Everything leads to this moment. It doesnt feel the same this year. To me it just feels like any other day. We will all do our best tomorrow coz we know u would be wanting us to enjoy ourselves but its not always that simple. Going to Nickis for lunch tomorrow so we can all be together on this first xmas without you. I'm looking forward to seeing the kids open there pressies and I love spoiling Scott at xmas as u know lol and I think he needs a little spoiling.
I'll be thinking of you all day as we all will. As u prob know the kids dont wanna know us but I'll be thinking of them tomorrow and I miss them both terribly. Me and Scott will always be here for them as u know and when they are ready we will be here. But as for now they will be in our hearts and thoughts tomorrow. We will see Jay and be there for him.
Anyway need to get the kids ready for bed and put a carrot out for rudolf :)
Missing you everyday and wishing u were still here xxxxx Close
where it all stars / Kirsty BAILEY (lil sis-in-law )Read >>
where it all stars / Kirsty BAILEY (lil sis-in-law )
I guess this is where it all started last year. We had weeks of you phoning almost everyday in tears. The arguments started with other members of the family and the fear set in that u were going to do what you did.
I remember You saying to Scott "I cant promise I'll be safe" He turned to me and said what do I do. I couldnt answer him. I didnt have the answers or the solution. I just said "short of handcuffing her to our bed there is nothing you can do. Just be there for her."
And we were. I cancelled plans so Scott could go to u and I sat listening to u crying on the end of the phone. You told him and Nicki how you would do it, that all the other times u knew u would come back from, that they were crys for help and if you really wanted to go u would do what u did. You sat in our front room on the 23rd as if nothing was wrong. You said u knew Bri was gone and you couldnt bring hime back but u didnt wanna see his face anymore and u werent scared of dying you just got to go to sleep forever. We read between the lines and knew what was gonna happen but how do u save someone that isnt really here anyway. Scott spoke to you xmas day when u and jay were alone. Next thing I remember is all the madness on the 29th. The second Scott left this house I knew. He didnt have to tell me why he ran out the house and sped off I knew. I will never forget those few days. I will never forget holding ur hand in the hospital and kissing you good bye and whispering in ur ear.
We all miss you so much. Things will never be the same again. I cant believe christmas is here again. and that ur not going to be in it. There never will be a happy new year or any celerations for us new year. It will always be the day u slipped away.
I miss you Sam and I know we have to make it thru and if you could u would tell us it will be all right.
Hayloo my beautieful princess, cant belive its all so near i just want it to go away i no it never will but thats how i feel, do you remember when we tried to reperice your lip an i tired doing it but cudnt get the lip bar threw u looked like u was gonna cry an then u got it in..and then when u was leaving that day b4 u did u gave me a lift to the shops put ur lip stick an then gave me a big kiss thats all i ever got from you just before u died but that will be in my heart forever and the kiss i gave you when we was at the hospital, i love you forever auntie sam ill never forget you until i die and then we can be together again. we had some good times and i never got to thank you enuf for finding my dad for me and then he just left me again but because of u i saw him one last time thank you so much never forget that, its gna be our 1st christmas without you, you wont even ring up again in the morning so i wud talk to you:( but deep down ill kno you'll be visting us all sweet dreams angle love you so much and i miss you so much always stay with me x x
Saw u today / Kirsty (sis-in-law)
I was coming out of the lift in Primark pushing the pram and a woman walking in to the lift as I was walking out. I looked at her and nearly passed out. I felt sick to the stomach, i started shaking and nearly burst into tears. She was the spitting image of u. She even had her lip piece. My mum even said she had to do a double take. So many things went thru my head in a split second. At first I was bout to smile and say Alright Love, then it clicked it wasnt you coz ur not here, then I thought it was all a joke and you were really here, then I wanted to kill you for ptting us thru that, then I didnt care as long as you were here. Then I just felt sick coz I realised it was all nonsence and it wasnt you. I was all shaken up and hnestly thought I was gonna be sick. She seriously was the spit of u. Not even slightly, it was almost like you had a twin. She was taller than you and bit fatter but other than that facially she could have been your twin.
How I wish it had have been you. I actally wouldnt care if this year had been some sick joke I want to just carry on as if it never happened. I want it all to go back to the way it was. I wanna sit in your kitchen drinking tea and giggling, sitting slagging certain peeps off as we always did and dissapearing into a cloud of smoke lol. I wanna sit in the garden while u sun urself and u keep moving the parasole to stop me from burning LOL. I want you to have a glass of wine with us on christmas day and have the kids open there pressies from u. I wanna hear you laughing at sily things and have a massive Bailey bundle LOL. I wanna text you or phone on new years eve to say happy new year and tell you i love you. I miss you sooooo much and i just want you to come back LOve you, missing you xxxx Close
christmas/ SCOTT (bruv)
hey sis, well christmas is just around the corner and for all i care it can bloody stay there, along with new year and my birthday!! Problem is i cant do that can i. I would just like to switch off from December till the end of January! I know christmas now is about the kids but its going to be really hard seeing them all excited and stuff and trying to play along when really, deep down, i wish christmas and new year could be cancelled!! It just seems a crock, putting on a brave face and pretending its all ok, its christmas! FUCK CHRISTMAS!! SORRY SAM LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH WISH YOU COULD STILL BE HERE, WISH I COULD OF DONE MORE, WISH I MADE YOU COME OVER MINE, WISH I GOT TO YOURS EARLIER!!! WISH YOU DIDNT DO WHAT YOU DID!! JUST WISH.....XXXXXX Close
Well Anit Been On Here For A While.. As You Because Youve Been Watching Down That My Lifes Been Soo Crap This Last Month But Ive Only Got Myself To Blame You'd Been So Dissapointed In Me But Now Just Trying To Forget About It All.. So Chirstmas Is Near An So Is The 1st Year Of Your Death Im Relly Not Looking Forward To It But Theres Nufink No1 Can Do Too Bring You Back If It Was True Id Do Anything Just Too See You Again :( I Miss You Soooooooooo Much And Ill Love You Froever And Forever To The Moon And Back A Million Times (L) xxxxxx See You Again Soon xxxxx
Well me and Nick went up to London Monday. We were in the pub at 10.30 at Brighton Station lol. Nicki tried to get me attacked on the bus, I went to get off the bus with our suitcase and she got off laughing. I was like "whats the matter with u" and she said I was gonna shout out stop thief. Shes nicking my suitcase" DIV!!!!! We didnt stop laughing all the way there. Then we got to covent garden bout 45 mins early so found the nearest pub LOL. There we were at half 12 with a pint and a fag on the street out side Covent Garden Station LOL. Then we got lost trying to find the studio He he!! As soon as we got there they gave us wine and we kept giggling. Nick couldnt believe4 I asked for another glass of wine!! I just wanted to get my moneys worth!!! Then I kept making Nick laugh thru the shoot all u could here was "I'm gonna smack u one in a min Kirst" The me chuckle and carry on messing! After we got the pics we had to walk to leicester square station and there was this really swankywine bar that I wanted to go in. (Well we were wearing our corsets home Ha!!) Nick said "ooh its bit upmarket for us" I just puched her out the way and walked in saying "for u maybe" PMSL!! We got in tere and Nick noticed it was happy hour and came back with a jug of sex on the beach, no glasses just straws. Two of them later and a shot and a half (he he) we went to another pub and then to the station. At the station we got another Pitcher of blue lagoon then headed home. We were bit drunk considering all I had all day was two pieces of toast and All nick had was a whopper LOL. We talked bout u all day and once we were drunk we were boring random peeps with ur story. We really missed u and we know hat u were looking down om us while we were there laughing at us having our makeup done and posing LOL. U'd have loved t u big tart. Anyway, prob boring u now. Basically it was great to get away after this year and let our hair down which we sure did LOL Love u always missing u forever xxxx Close
Merry christmas auntie Sam / Carlie-Anne, Shannon, Brooke, Libby And Riley Bailey (Nieces and Nephew )Read >>
Merry christmas auntie Sam / Carlie-Anne, Shannon, Brooke, Libby And Riley Bailey (Nieces and Nephew ) Close
Merry christmas Angel / Nicki, Scott And Kirsty (sis, Bro and Sis-in-law )Read >>
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november/ Kirsty (lil sis )
Cant believe its novemeber already. Seems like only yesterday I was sitting by ur bed knowing u would never wake. Just been talking to Carlie-Anne bout xmas and new year. We are gonna all be together which is good. Me and Nicki are going to London Monday for our makeover. Will be such a laugh. Ganna have a bottle of wine on the train there and they give you wine at the makeover. Its a really posdh expensive one. Looked at there pics and they are bloody brill. Cant wait. Wish u were here. U'd have been coming. You know what a poser u are LOL.
Me and Scott are trying to make plans for next year. This year has been so hard we wanna try make next year better. It will never be the same but all our lives have to go on. You will always be with us though.
Hope you are liking your xmas site. Its not quite finished yet but hopefully be done by next week and i'll put a christmas song on dec 1st
i no i aint been on here for ages but it jus makes me cry sumtimes it neva used to but it dus now i miss u so much i jus wish that i could talk to leighton an georgia again but i cant miss u soooo much luv ya xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Close
Mrs Bo Jangles / Kirsty (lil sis )
Picking up our kitten in a min. She is a blue tabby with white feet. Shes just over 8 weeks. We all sat wracking our brains the other day for a name, Brooke was coming up with the usual, twinkle, star light, diamond etc and obviously ur bro was giving me names like Shankley, Paisley and Gerrard!!!!! If it was a boy i would happily use one of those BUT its a girl LOL. Somewhere along the line we came up with Bo Jangles and that was it Mrs Bo Jangles, Bo for short. We thought U and Bri would like that lol. Would have made u both chuckle. Just bought her all her bits only got a little pink kitten collar for now coz she will grow so quickly seen a pink diamonte one with a crown hanging off that I really like but its to big for her at the mo so i'll get it when shes bigger. She has to saty in the frontroom for 48 hours just coz its first time away from her mum so just sorting out somewhere to put her litter tray and food n the frontroom at the mo. Scott has just bought a new cat flap coz that one was there when we moved in LOL. Its an electric one so only she can come in and out no other cat can. I think we def need one of them coz we had all that fiasco twice with a cat getting in the kitchen getting scared and breaking everything in the kitchen and scaring the poo out of ur Lil Bro . Was bloody funny though ROFL. Got Carlie-Anne, Jay and Demi coming over tomorrow to see her. Car and Demi are getting the bus over but Jay is just gonna ride over on his Bike after College. Car asked if we could make cakes LOL. Told her " how old are u, I havent made cakes with u for bout 4 years lol!" Then when she said Jays coming over too I just said "Does he wanna make bloody cakes too" LOL. Big babies the lot of um He he.
I went to london on an all day drinking session sat with my mum. Was good to let my hair down. Sang Karaoke as usual. I sung "there u'll be" Got passed the first verse then cried thru the rest of it lol. Should just stick to girls aloud. Seemed like a good idea when I requested it. Bet u were laughing and pointing at me LOL.
Nic and I are going up to Covent Garden on 12th for our Makeover/photo session. Should be a laugh. we get champange all day so should be a giggle when it gets to having the pics done LOL.
Anyway, Need to put some washing on and sort out Bo Jangles' stuff. I'll get some pics of her and put um on so u can see her. I'll see if I can get one of her and Jay for ya. He might not let me take one LOL its too GIRLIE PMSL Anyway Babe, Love u as always Missing u forever, Kirst xxxxx Close
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i miss u so much 
i jus wish that i could talk to leighton an georgia again but i cant
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